January 2012



I’m taking a seminar class this semester titled “Nonviolent Conflict.”  At first I was nervous thinking that it was going to be a lot of reading and learning about stuff in the past.  Hence I was thinking it was going to be more of a history class than a political science class.  So far I have been wrong!

We watched the movie “Pray the Devil Back to Hell.”  It was about the protests that the women of Liberia did when a war broke out in their country between the government and the warlords.  The protests were huge and got thousands of women together to peacefully show the government and the warlords that they were killing and raping their own people.  They were NOT protecting them.  You can learn more about that here.

Pray The Devil Back To Hell

This got me thinking about how much I complain about stuff going on in my life and in this country, but when compared to the rest of the world we have it easy.  I don’t know if I could do what those women did.  They had been through so much but they didn’t let that stop them. It only made them stronger and more willing to do whatever it took to get Peace in Liberia.

I like to think that if I was in that situation that I would have joined them.  I would have sat there day in and day out asking and praying for peace.  But then I think about what I’m doing right now.  I’m sitting at my computer avoiding homework.  There is so much that I could be doing.  I could be praying for this country.  I could be praying for peace for everyone.  Those women gave up everything they had to help their country and I won’t even give up 10 minutes of my day to help mine.

When I grow up I want to be someone that people can say positive things about.

When I grow up I want to look back on my life with no regrets and know in my heart that I did everything I could do to make myself a better person.

When I grow up I want to be happy.

When I grow up I want to know that I am in the right place.

When I grow up I want to learn to not second guess myself.

When I grow up I want to be able to say that I traveled the world.

When I grow up I want to impact someone’s life.

When I grow up I want to be thankful for the little things in life.

When I grow up I want to say thank you to all the people who hurt me and made me the person I will become.

When I grow up I want to look back and smile because I was able to do everything I set out to do.

I  love my job.  I mean I really love it.  There are parts about it that I can’t stand and that annoy me but the good outweighs the bad in most situations.  Residents moved in yesterday.  That’s always a bittersweet moment.  I’m happy that they are back but I’m sad that the silence of this old building is gone.  I went through Spring Training and it was great! I presented 2 different sessions both of which got positive reviews and then I went to one titled “Avoiding Burnout.”

One of the main problems of a RA is burnout.  They get tired of doing their job and just stop caring.  I’m responsible for this as most 2nd year RAs are.  This is my 3rd year as a RA and like I said I LOVE IT! I want to do this for the rest of my life but there are things that start putting doubt in my head.  Here is a small list:

  • Disrespectful residents
  • Rude guests
  • Room inspections
  • Rounds late at night

Now that I have the negative things out of the way, there are many reasons why I keep doing my job and have a blast at the same time.  Here is that list:

  • Happy residents
  • Successful programs
  • Helping mediate conflicts
  • Introducing strangers and watching them become best friends
  • Watching residents grow educationally and socially
  • Knowing that I have impacted someone, somewhere, in some way.

This job is very rewarding and I hope that I get to do this for the rest of my life.  I know that there are going to be times when I want to quit and give up but I will keep going because in the end it will all be worth it.